Stress

Today has been an extremely stressful day for me for some reason. Not totally sure why, but a lot of stuff has just hit me today I guess. Things with school has been hitting me a lot and overwhelming me with how much work I am going to have to do in the next few weeks before spring break gets here, which I cannot wait for....I need a break really badly. But what has stressed me out even more is where I need to transfer to next year. I thought I had it all figured out about a week ago to go to USC aiken and I was just gonna go there because it was the most "comfortable" thing for me to do, but the past few days I have had an uneasy feeling inside that I need to go pursue music at Liberty University in VA. That's so far away from everything, my girlfriend, family, and all my friends.

I have been trying to just kind of make the decision and get it over with and hope that the feeling of uneasiness would just go away but that was a total lie. I wanted to go where I felt like it fit better for me; even though I have always wanted to do music. I wanted it to all be about me, when it's never about me, or us. It's always about what God wants us to do and he's going to let us know that some way or another. Just like when I talked about Direction Determines Destination in an older blog, if we don't go where we feel God calling us then we won't be able to be in the position that God has set for us in the future. So I need to take my own advice haha.

I still have a huge uneasiness right now, but it's more just being scared about what to do. I'm not making a final decision right now because I definitely want to spend time in prayer about it and make sure this is what I need to do. It's just been stressing me out to the max. Luckily I have an awesome girlfriend who supports me in whatever and told me that if I feel like i need to go that far away then that's ok and that's what I should do. She's awesome.

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not rely on your own understanding and He will make your path straight"

-Proverbs 3:5-6

Those are my favorite verses and I really need to focus on them more right now. Please be praying for clarity for me. Thank you.

"It's your love that we adore
It's like a sea without a shore,
Don't be afraid, Don't be afraid

Just set your sail and risk the ocean,
show me grace,
let's risk the ocean,
show me your grace,
let's risk the ocean,
show me your grace,
let's risk the ocean."

-David Crowder Band